I wanna tell you again, I said
I wanna tell you again, if I could
but it just hurts...well
I thought it was set when I sent, the message that I
got to you in the way that I wanted to,
after all this time, I've been
tryin' way too hard. It's like,
I spent my weekend lookin out for
who I could've seen for support, but I
kept myself cornered in my own realm
and expected you to come forward
I didn't wanna think about your response, the
way you would or even at all, cause
how am I supposed to know what to do if I
finally tell you "hey I think I like you"?
it's only him who understands,
, he knows how worked up i've been, it's
spillin' out the sides of my head, i
finally hit send
...
Will my future be happy?
Do I get full agency?
Why won't you just trust me?
You said you'll just have to see
But I thought the world was that simple,
the universe revolves around winners
Nobody told me, my friends are all guilty, who
treat their love like a commodity!
What's the deal with loves coming out?
Like the stars align, and fate decides
You better get ready if someone gets hurt, no
Second thoughts on how to get out
I just wanted to find someone
that I could go to every day who'd
be sure to follow me, as
long as they make use of my body
I tried to get my message out, but it
hit you in the face like a cinder block
Who cares about first impressions, I
al-ways make things up in the end
...
So you gave me a chance to change
I wanted to find a way, to
make sure we got arranged to
grow together in every situation
but you didn't say anything
that it was bothering you
I just shot around for my dreams
I didn't realize, I shot you too
...
You told me that I could change myself
that I've got good intentions
somehow you saw that, behind all the
panic and danger I put myself in
You said you gave me another chance
to do things right as if we never met
but what good was all of that when it
took so long to get your attention?
You gave me a second chance,
I tried not to fuck it up
-
-
I didn't want to fall in love
I just wanted to find someone
Who'd hide my eyes when I didn't like
the way my life was turning out
I blamed you
I hated you
-
But you wouldn't leave my dreams
I put you under the guillotine
I demonized you in my own schemes
- I
wanted to put you at my mercy
Cause I was just so angry
I didn't know where to turn when
all my friends had left and gone, and I
didn't feel like starting over again
I didn't try to find anyone new
I didn't know what to do
I thought I knew it would come to a head, if I
told you, "I wish we were all dead"
Cause who could I have found
in this forward-facing town?
...Who would under
stand me at my lowest? And
Doesn't the context say a whole lot about
who I am, and doesn't that absolve me?
Of my responsibilities?
I guess I only know half my own story.
-
But maybe I'm not
so great. To
find someone like you, who is
Strong, willing and compassionate
To give people
another look when they realize they
fucked something up
So you took my hand
And said it wouldn't work out
But you told me there's a silver lining
cause that's how the best of stories go
If I could learn to change myself
and not be so obsessed
over something like a relationship
like it's a possession
If I could treat you like a person
like I did all those years ago
then maybe we could find some equal ground
but I'm done with trying to frame anything
Burnabyyyyyyyyyyy do you
hear that?
It's no longer in my ears.
It's up to me now.
Burnabyyyyyyyyy
yyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
...Can't you hear the
ringing?
-
Darling? I'm already
getting used to this
I still want to throw myself away
-
But not entirely
just the parts that I didn't want in the first
place
Leave behind, all those parts that I was holding onto
A dangerous
coping mechanism
cause I let it
fester. I let it
accumulate. I didn't talk to
anyone, about how I was feeling or
how I wanted to feel that way.
And I didn't realize that
I was in it for the fans
not even to serve myself, I regret
dragging you into this
but now I know what I want
cause anger only got me this far
...you bet I'm willing to change
...for you...
Burnaby,
talk to me,
Burnaby,
talk to me,
Burnaby,
I'll do it gratefully
I wanna listen to you
so long as you'll listen to me
Burnaby,
talk to me,
Burnaby,
talk to me,
Burnaby,
I'll do it gratefully
for you I'll always listen, and
I wanna be, some, one, to, be-lieve, in
Seattle band conjure a summer-ready dreamscape through a swirling combination of dream pop, psychedelia, and disco. Bandcamp New & Notable May 11, 2022
